Set Goals

I have been working out hard for a little over a year. Lifting heavy weights, running, and various unorthodox training and my physical abilities and appearance have changed dramatically. My only major problems are; One, I have not taken a lot of pictures during the progressive evolution and therefore the transformation is harder for me to see. Two, I haven't set and real short, mid-range, and long-term goals. The second I can do something about, and throughouot this week I will be working on a list of those. I need to get back on track and have something to aim towards. I am a lost sheep right now.
Current weight, 205. 2 weeks ago I weighed 195 (F-Me).

Running Into The Ground

After running the trails today and finishing with a slower time than I had hoped/expected I was pretty depressed. I was frustrated because I am down to a manageable weight and I should have been able to finish with a faster time. I felt like my pace was good and the conditions were excellent and I still could not achieve what I wanted so instead of moving forward, I stalled. Instead of working for the next day, I decided to have a piece of apple pie and some reeses candy. I continued with the smores bars and finished up with a bunch of pineapple strawberries (at least that part was healthy). This morning I woke up and again gulped down some apple pie and smores. I want to stop, but I just can't. Oh well, this is damn good apple and pie and smores. I will make up for it later. Enjoyed the moment and will not let the satisfaction be a setback.

Four Day Destruction

30 days of Paleo ended, then a side experiment started. I thought I would see how much shit I could consume in 4 days and how much weight I could gain in a short time. Anything from ice cream to apple pie with chocolate, m&m's, smores bars, and whatever easter candy I could get my hands on. It was really a miserable experience. What good food and diet had built up in energy levels was ripped apart as the hurricane of carbohydrates and processed BS was thrown its way. Insulin levels spiked and dipped. A self realization occured. I am an addict. When I am not focused 100% on eating healthy I go 180 degrees in the wrong direction. Their is no middle ground.