Pizza and McDonalds

Tearing it up with pizza for lunch followed by a McDonalds sundae and cookies.  The fat train is rounding the bend and picking up steam...

A New Day

Currently working through the bad, the overwhelming desire for something sweet and satisfying.  I have always had a craving, a desire that I felt wasn't being met.  I need to find another path.

Landslide

Whether it be a late night ice cream snack, a peanut butter cup, or an entire shitty meal from Sonic, I just can't stop sabotaging myself and my goals.  The last few days have been stressful, but that is also why my body and mind needed the best food to operate as effecient as possible.  Instead the tanks are filled with sludge and I cannot stop craving carb-loaded, sugar filled, creamy, worthless crap.  Yep, this night is destroyed.  Must keep focus and not let some bad times derail the train completely.

Still Trying

Woke up for a 4:30 am run.  3.9 miles in 30 minutes on the treadmill.  Good breakfast and then shared some chips with the 3 year-old.  He can eat and eat and eat.  I must still have that mindset.  I am not sure I have ever stated my goals or intentions of this site, but right now I am working on getting stronger, but the objective for 2010 is to lose 20-25 lb's.  I am at about 211 fully clothed, I need to be about 180-185.  It will take a lot more mental control than I am currently giving.  I am hoping that keeping these records will keep me in check and keep my focus.

Bad Turns To Worse

Missed am workout, chest cold (lazy). Ate well during the day, intense workout in the afternoon, see http://www.theshoptopeka.com/. High protein dinner, not real lean (chicken strips and meatballs, again) leftovers. Then, to destroy anything remotely good I sat in front of the television with a bag of kettle chips (at least they are all natural and have no sugar). The night is still young, the best I can do for myself is end it well.

.................
My addictions have overcome me.  Once I roll down the path of bad intentions, I cannot stop.  Ended the night with some fruit snacks, chocolate bar, and 2 ice cream bars.  Probably 500 useless calories.

Small Train Wreck

Just because I didn't eat sweets today doesn't mean I didn't fuck up.  Lunch was a salad and half order of lasagna, not bad.  I did not have a snack afterward, but dinner I just couldn't stop eating.  8-10 meatballs, chicken strip, 4 pieces of bread, and 2 handfuls of kettle chips.  I feel good, but I know I will have a food hangover tomorrow morning.  Double workouts tomorrow will help, but I am still trying to outwork a shitty diet.

The Prodigal God

Social gathering, limited myself to 1 brownie, 1 cookie. I have gone 30+ days of no sugar before, not that long ago, but that seems nearly impossible now. It's everywhere.

A Good Day

A good day. Kept the meals small and lean, no snacks.

$1 Menu

Complacentcy has gotten me into this horrible food eating funk, but it is certainly easier to stay the bad course than it is to steer over to the healthy road. The healthy side requires much more planning, time, care, and commitment. It also helps if someone is working with you, but the will has to come from yourself.
Being mentally tough, IS tough mentally.

Bad Food Today:  Sonic Dollar Menu - Chicken Sandwich, Frito Wrap, and Tater Tots + 1 cup of homemade icecream, 6 girl scout cookies